This entry has nothing to do with surrogacy, but everything to do with accountability.
Here's the thing, for those of you that may not know, after I had my (surro) miscarriage in March I was pretty devastated. I guess as an automatic reflex my subconscious decided that I needed to do something to keep my mind off of the loss. I started off going walking at a park on my lunch breaks. Then I progressed to going to "aqua boot camp" twice a week, which turned in to 3 times a week. Then I added in P90X! (And yes, I was doing this all at the same time) I would walk/jog on my lunch, get off of work and go to water aerobics, then leave water aerobics and do P90X at home.
I'm pretty sure I was off my rocker at some point.
Nonetheless, within about a month I was seeing some pretty awesome results, and after almost 3 months of being an exercise Nazi I was down 20lbs and 3 pant sizes! Not to mention I was feeling pretty darn good about myself, especially the fact that I had started this routine on my own and had been sticking to it. You couldn't tell me that I didn't look good! :-)
But for some reason that I can't seem to pinpoint, I stopped it all. First the walks at work, then I cut back on how often I would go to my class, and then P90X ended at the 90 day mark. There's really nothing that I can blame it on except myself. My drive. My will. I think I did what a lot of people do after having success with exercise; I got complacent. Not good.
I would tell myself "Oh, I did so well, I'm just gonna take a break in between starting again." Yeah right.
Well NO MORE EXCUSES! Today I am holding myself accountable. Today I will be the Krystal I know I can be. I will not succumb to the little voice in my head that says "I can't, I don't want to". Today, I will simply do.
I made a plan with one of my co-workers, and she and I will be going to workout together on our lunches at the park I used to frequent. I will also make my butt get up in the morning to start another round of P90X! And I will surely be at my next aerobics class tonight! I'm excited and a little scared that I've called myself out like this, but it's all good, I know if I don't keep myself motivated my hubby will or maybe one of my loyal followers will. :-)
I'll blog about my progress along the way so I will have that accountability, good or not so good. Although at some point I will have to stop the high impact exercises once we start cycling for another transfer, but that doesn't mean I can't still do my walks and some low impact (approved) exercises. NO EXCUSES! There are pregnancy-friendly workout plans too. :-)
Lord, give me the will and strength!