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I'm a wife, mom, and gestational surrogate. I've been blessed to be able to have 2 beautiful daughters of my own and 2 cute little surro babes for IPs. With the support of my WONDERFUL family and friends, I'm doing it again!! Follow me on my journey...

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

1 Step Closer

1st I'd like to say thank you to all of you that left me comments and sent emails regarding my last post, One More Time, whether you know it or not I really do appreciate your input and insight! So thanks! ☺

Things are moving right along, so I just wanted to give you guys a quick update on what's happening. I received a profile from my new agency a few days after my previous post; Kevin, the girls, and I looked it over and decided that we liked what we saw! ☺ The agency set up a conference call for us which was scheduled for this Monday, unfortunately, Kevin was still at work and the call kept dropping when I tried to conference him in so he didn't get to participate. I filled him in on what he missed though. ☺
So anyway, I was super nervous....didn't think I would be since I've been through this 2 other times before, but it felt like I was going on a first date;  I was all jittery and it was awkward at 1st because the coordinator called me first then connected my call to "M&P" and said "Ok, Krystal I have M&P on the phone now".................................................................................................Literally...dead silence. AWKWARD....I guess that was my cue to say something, but whatevs.  After that initial weirdness, the conversation was much better. (between the stupid phone breaking up every 3 minutes...thanks AT&T, not!) We laughed and discovered some things we have in common and after about a 30 minute conversation they asked if we could meet! Yay!! I really liked them and was hoping they were feeling the same way, so I was glad they asked...we decided that we're gonna meet for brunch this Sunday. Eeeekkk! I'm so excited and nervous at the same time! To be continued..... ☺

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

1 More Time?

As many of you know I've had "the itch" since Baby L was probably a month, not that kind of itch, get your minds back on track!

The surrogacy itch! I've contemplated back and forth on whether I want to do another journey or not and I've pretty much driven Kevin crazy with talking about it. So I'll just talk to you all this time! ☺

There are plenty of people that think I'm nuts for wanting to "go through it again", after having been sick for the first trimester and being on bed rest for 10 weeks. I understand, but what they don't understand is that I see the bigger picture. I see the struggles and heart break that the IPs have been through. I see the years of being told "no, you can't have a baby". So to me, being sick or the possibility of bed rest are small sacrifices for a greater good. Yes, I may complain and whine about it while I'm in the midst of it...Hell, most other people would too, but I know that it will pass and in the end there is indescribable joy.

So, after talking with Kevin for the bajillionth time, he finally said he'd be okay with me doing another journey!! Don't jump for joy just yet, that's just the first hurdle. (Albeit a big one)
This past Saturday I was invited by another surro to attend her agency's semi-annual luncheon, just so I could check out the agency and see if I really want to do this again. It was AWESOME! I'm not sure what I was expecting...cheese and crackers...a few surros...maybe the agency director...I didn't have high expectations after my shitty agency. It was WAY better than I expected; there were surros that are currently pregnant, surros that had already delivered, IFs, IP's, babies, 2 owners, 2 doctors...and a partridge in a pear tree. ☺ Seriously though, it was very well put together and needless to say, I was impressed and ready to sign a contract right then and there, lol. I met some great people and after I left I received an email saying that there were 2 sets of IPs as a possible match for me! WHAT!? Apparently I made a good impression at the luncheon. Ummm...yea....speechless. I wasn't expecting things to move quite as fast, I mean, I'm not even signed up with the agency yet!

So anyway, the one lingering question I have is: Is it selfish of me to do this again? Being a surrogate takes not only my own efforts, but that of my family as well. I don't want to be a burden, but I also want to do something that makes me feel fulfilled. Does that make sense?

Without getting even more wordy than I already have, what do you guys think? Should I just leave well enough alone and be happy that I was able to do it at least once or do I try for one last time?



Friday, October 19, 2012

The Day That Changed Lives

Today is a special day.
Today is the day that changed so many lives forever, including mine.
Today, Baby L is ONE YEAR OLD!!!

It's hard to believe that a year ago I was in the hospital setting off fire alarms and delivering the cutest little boy you've ever laid your eyes on! It was a surreal experience and a feeling that will stick with me forever.

This past year has been a great "after surrogacy" experience as well. I had my worries after Baby L was born that my IPs would just be like "thanks for your services, see ya!" Of course, they never gave me reason to think that, but my mind tends to worry. It's actually been opposite of that...I get pictures, videos and updates all the time! AND I LOVE IT!! They even came to visit this summer and my IPs let him stay the night with us! We had so much fun!

Pulling up on any and everything

How could you not love that gummy smile!? :-)

Being silly :P

The girls played with him for hours!

I think they wore him out!

We have all, truely, become family and I wouldn't have it any other way! I am forever grateful to my IPs for allowing me the honor to carry their son and I am enjoying watching them discover the craziness of parenthood. ☺

We'll be attending Baby L's 1st birthday party next weekend and I can't wait!! I'll leave you all with a couple more recent pics of the cutie pie! TTYL!


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

4 months, already??

I know I have been M.I.A., but I have been checking in from time to time on all of you ☺ I cannot believe that Baby L is FOUR MONTHS OLD!!! He has to be the cutest little guy on the planet (I'm not bias at all). We (my family and I) went to visit my IPs and Baby L for New Years and I LOVED it! Never thought I'd like feeding and changing diapers so much, lol.
He's getting so big now, nothing like the little 4lb 9oz guy he was 4 months ago. I enjoy getting all of the updates and pictures of him too!

We were both a little sleepy :-)

After bath time (he loves the bathtub!)

Kailey & Baby L

Kourtlyn & Baby L
Our family has gotten back in the full swing of things and it's non-stop now! School events and feild trips, soccer for all 4 of us, Kevin's basketball games, work....the list goes on! (I think I might miss bed rest! ☺) We surprised the girls with a trip to Disney World earlier this month and it was so much fun!! The weather was perfect and it was during the "non-peak season" so we barely had to wait in any lines! We definitely didn't want to come back!

As for me, I've still been doing Zumba and playing soccer, trying to get back in shape and lose what I like to call "bed rest weight" . I've lost 33lbs so far of the 41 (eek!) that I gained. I'm definitely on a mission; we have our Puerto Vallarta trip booked for July and I don't think the "beached whale" look is in this year. :\

I have to admit that I've been contemplating doing another surrogacy, but I'm pretty sure Kevin acts like he's deaf when I bring it up, lol. It might help take it off of my mind if I actually put away all of my maternity clothes...I still have them in my closet and dresser drawers...hanging on to that glimmer of hope, lol.
Before I had Baby L I would wonder why so many ladies had more than one surrogacy journey; I wondered "wasn't 1 time enough?", but now I understand. There are no words to describe the overwhelming joy you feel knowing that you are helping create a family for someone that may not have had the chance otherwise. It's such an amazing privilege and I'm glad to say that, at least once, I was able to be a part of it all.

Anywho peeps, I just wanted to check-in with you all and say Happy 4 Months to Baby L!